8/9/2011

I don't even know where to start! So frustrated. I hate being this unhappy all the time. I'm tired of people saying shit like "life is what you make of it" and "you control your own destiny".
That's fine and true for young people who don't have a life yet. It's not true for a 46 year old who is in her second marriage, has three kids all in their twenties, a 7 month old grand daughter that means everything in the world to her, and a 73 year old mother who counts on her for EVERYTHING ever since she became a widow over three years ago!
I feel like I am trapped in this crap hole town for the rest of my life! I never wanted to live here! I was brought here as an infant, and have wanted to leave for as long as I can remember! The older I get, the more reasons that come along to keep me here.